Today I met with a couple of my students, and inevitably the conversation turned to God. Being a seminary professor, that is certainly an occupational hazard! What was not expected is how both conversations seemed to focus on God's "absence" during hard times. We know (theologically, at least) that God never leaves us. He is "omnipresent." We also understand Jesus' words when he says, "Behold, I am with you always, even to the end of the age." We take that to mean that God never really forsakes us.
Yet in our moments of trial, in times of despair, we tend to live a lot more in Psalm 22 ("My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?") than in Psalm 23 ("The Lord is my shepherd, I will not want."). That little reality caused me to think of Psalm 139 and God's continuing and never failing presence. Here is what the Psalm says (in part):
CSB Psalm 139:1-12 For the choir director. A Davidic psalm.
"LORD, You have searched me and known me. You know when I sit down and when I
stand up; You understand my thoughts from far away. You observe my travels
and my rest; You are aware of all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue, You
know all about it, LORD. You have encircled me; You have placed Your hand on
me. This extraordinary knowledge is beyond me. It is lofty; I am unable to
reach it. Where can I go to escape Your Spirit? Where can I flee from Your
presence? If I go up to heaven, You are there; if I make my bed in Sheol, You are there. If I live at the eastern horizon or settle at the western
limits, even there Your hand will lead me; Your right hand will hold on
to me. If I say, 'Surely the darkness will hide me, and the light
around me will become night'-- even the darkness is not dark to You.
The night shines like the day; darkness and light are alike to You."
Those of us who claim to be Christians (or even Jews and Muslims,
for that matter) typically claim that God is everywhere always. That is, he is
right with us even when we don’t think he is, and worse (perhaps), when we hope that he
is not. He is there. I think Francis Schaeffer wrote a book entitled The God
who is There. At any rate, Psalm 139 reminded me of all the times in my life when
God was present (like he always is), even when I tried to overlook that reality. I can't shake the reality that he is present. He is here. He is in this place. I may overlook him, but there he is nonetheless.
Sometimes I notice God there on the fringe of my experience (kind
of hanging around like a brother who wants to be involved in everything you
do). Sometimes I respond with a sense of comfort (Oh good, he is there!). Other
times I respond with fear (Oh no, did he see that!). Other times I am
complacent (Oh, it’s just you, huh?). Still some times I am overwhelmed (Thank
God you’re here!). I think of the Jews wandering in the wilderness and camped
at Mt. Sinai. God showed up on the mountain, and they begged Moses to make it
stop! “Don’t let God speak directly to us again, we can’t take it!” The
acknowledgement of God’s presence frightened them, maybe it made them a bit
uncomfortable. Maybe we respond to God in the same way. We know he is there, but we wish he'd "tone it down" a bit. We wish he wouldn't "make so much noise" in our lives. We wish he'd kind of fade into the background just a bit. We want God to be silent on occasions.
When we reach that point, however, we find ourselves desperate nonetheless. We try to turn on white noise to drown out the sound of God's voice or we paint with vivid colors in an effort to keep him from showing up in our portrait so clearly. Yet as we try to silence him, we begin to fish for "God substitutes" to give us some kind of comfort. We look for something (anything?) to give us the comfort of God's presence. Annie Dillard addresses this problem when she says:
“It is difficult to undo our own damage, and to recall to
our presence that which we have asked to leave. . . . We doused the
burning bush and cannot rekindle it; we are lighting matches in vain under
every green tree. . . . What have we been doing all these centuries but trying to
call God back to the mountain, or, failing that, raise a peep out of anything
that isn’t us? What is the difference between a cathedral and a physics lab?
Are they not both saying: ‘Hello, is anyone there?’ We spy on whales and on interstellar radio
objects; we starve ourselves and pray till we’re blue.” From Teaching a Stone to Talk by Annie
Dillard
Our fear of God’s omnipresence causes us to turn off a
switch in our minds and souls that helps us to recognize this fascinating (and
sometimes frightening) reality. We simply pretend he isn’t there. We even ignore his
obvious appearances. We close our ears to his persistent whisper, his incessant voice, his ongoing speech to us. We ignore the God of all, then we claim that we didn’t know
he was there. As A. W. Tozer notes:
“. . . If God is present at every point in space, if we
cannot go where he is not, cannot even conceive of a place where he is not, why
then has not that Presence become the one universally celebrated fact of the
world? The patriarch Jacob, ‘in waste howling wilderness,’ gave the answer to
that question. He saw a vision of God and cried out in wonder. ‘Surely the Lord
is in this place; and I knew it not.’ Jacob had never been for one small
division of a moment outside of the circle of that all-pervading Presence. But
he knew it not. That was his trouble, and it is ours. People do not know if God
is here. What a difference it would make if they knew.” From The Pursuit of God
by A. W. Tozer
We “know it not” because we don’t like the reality that
God’s omnipresence makes us face. That reality is this—when we fail and sin, he
is there. When we succeed, he is there. When we need him, he is there. When we
think we don’t need him, he is there. Even when we don’t want him to be, he is
there. The Psalmist understood this when he said: "You
know all about it, LORD. You have encircled me; You have placed Your hand on
me. This extraordinary knowledge is beyond me. It is lofty; I am unable to
reach it. Where can I go to escape Your Spirit? Where can I flee from Your
presence?" We try our best to escape God, knowing all along that escape is simply impossible.
He is there. Whether we like it or not, he is there. He is not asleep, he has not grown bored, he has not diverted his attention. He is in the midst of all of it--the beauty, the horror, the victory, the tragedy, the highs, the lows. He is there with us. He has not forsaken us, in fact, he CANNOT leave us. He is there because he is God.
One of my pet peeves is to hear a preacher talking about
Jesus’ cry (“My God, my God, why have you forsaken me”) from the cross and say
something like, “At that point, God turned his back on Jesus because he became
sin for us.” Think of the ramifications of that idea—God, the omnipresence One,
turning his back on his only unique Son. God, the merciful, overlooking the
sacrifice his own Son Jesus is offering. Can you imagine it? God, forsaking his
Son! It sounds ridiculous because it is. God did not “turn his back on Jesus”
(look in the text of the Gospels, it does not say any such thing). No, God was
watching the brutal fact of it all with tears in his eyes. He did not forsake
Jesus, and he does not forsake us. He endures when we pretend he is
absent, but he is there. He loves Jesus, even when Jesus became sin for us, God
lovingly watched his Son. God lovingly watches you as well.
He is there, and he is not going away.
Scary, ain’t it?
Thanks for reading!