Outside Looking In

It wasn’t always this way, at one time you were accepted. You were the “go to” person that people called on for a variety of issues. Party? You were invited. Ministry? You were on the list. People needed help or counseling? You got the call. You were in demand. You were needed, even wanted.

Now, here you stand. Was it raining when you got here, or did it just start? The people inside look so warm and welcome. They seem happy, almost content. They are included.

And here you stand—outside, looking in.

You understand that you aren’t always going to fit. You recognize that you are not every person's “cup of tea.” That really isn’t the issue, is it? The issue is that you seem “left out” or “overlooked” or that you don’t belong.

Outside, looking in.

Are those tears mingling with the rain running down your face?

Where did it go wrong? When did you end up on the no fly list? How did it come to this?

The rain begins to slow down, but now your tears return in earnest. The dreams you had, the sense of a call to something bigger, something better, something more than . . . yet here you stand . . . outside, looking in.

Wiping your face, you turn to go. Loneliness overwhelms you for a moment. Then you see a familiar face.

Is that Jesus? Is He crying too? Why would He cry? Then you notice that His arms are open, reaching for you. Is He reaching to hug you or to receive a hug?

It doesn’t seem to matter as you embrace. You are home. Jesus is outside, looking in with you. No, the problems didn’t all fade away into oblivion, but all of a sudden they don’t seem to overwhelm. You have a friend, and for now that is sufficient.

Yes, sometimes life is hard. Sometimes we are really lonely. We could all get t-shirts that say “Been there, done that.” Finding out you are on the outside, looking in when you thought you were accepted and on the inside can be devastating. Regardless, Jesus is a friend who sticks closer than a brother. He is there, and he cares.

May His presence bring you joy even in turmoil. May His embrace remind you that you belong to Him.

I also want you to know that there are others that care. I am one of them. If I can help, please let me know. One step at a time, weary pilgrim, one step at a time. You really are not alone.

Thanks for reading!